Houston...we have a heartbeat

I have waited for this day for over three weeks. One minute I can't wait, the next minute I am scared out of my wits. Having a m/c changes how you look at a pregnancy. You wonder daily about what could go wrong. Those two lines change your life the minute you see them.

Today I had my first u/s. I am 7 weeks 3 days. Having obsessively researched I KNOW what we are supposed to see...the heartbeat. My husband is not at all tense. I am not sure if he really is not tense or is just remaining strong for me. We cried together when our baby miscarried last October. I KNOW he had to be feeling more than he let on.

We made it to the appointment and luckily only had to wait about 15 minutes. We brought Jake along and taking a toddler to a doctor's office is definately a recipe for disaster. He was all over the waiting room and would lay down in front of the door taunting fate. Finally we are asked to go back. The nurse who checked me in asked how I was doing. I told her fine. She said that I was probably surprised by this pregnancy. She does not know the half of it. I felt somehow emotionally shut down at this point. I could not be really happy about the u/s as it had the power to change my life again. Which direction would IT send me. I was asked if I needed to use the restroom. I said I just went. I was told to disrobe and the doctor would be right in. I waited only like 2 minutes and lo and behold in came the doctor. I wish all doctors were this prompt. He took only a few seconds before he was showing us a normal 7 week old baby. He showed us the beating heart. I was shocked. Everything was actually going to be fine. Even though I have had no cause to think otherwise you still can't believe it when you see the heartbeat. He then proceeded to tell me that he wanted to see us again in 2 weeks for another u/s. I was stunned. I thought we would be released to my ob. He said given our history he wanted to do one last u/s and that next u/s we should see the arms and legs forming. I am just so happy to get another look since 2 weeks from today will be the milestone Ihave been wanting to pass. The same gestation that we lost our other baby. I still get tears when I think about it even now. So, for now, my baby is doing fine. Here's hoping the 2 weeks go by quickly.